I'm so tired of everyone saying, "its not u, its him." Yea right!!! He's PERFECT and i'm ME. The nerd, the wanna-be popular. I'm so sick of everyone lying to me. It can't always be him. In fact, ITS NEVER HIM! I try everything to make him like me again, to make him remember how happy we used to be, but i'm NEVER good enough. Nothing i do is ever good enough because im ME not HIM. I will never be perfect.

Don't you just wanna jump off the world sometimes and fly through the air, soaring and soaring...till u fall...u hope that u will land in a different place. Somewhere that doesn't have your problems or anything that has to do with ur life. Sometimes i feel like i feel this way much too often. Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed with the stresses of my life that i lose myself and forget who i am or what i want to become. All i can think about is what will happen when its all over. I mean all the stresses...will i be able to find myself again? But what happens if i lose myself again?...and more imortantly....what if next time i can't pick up the pieces? Will i lose myself forever?